I have lived most of my life in my head. As a child this served me well. The land of make believe, the adventures, all manifestations of what I truly thought life should be about. I created this happily ever after place to escape the reality that life felt cruel at times and events occurred that my young mind I couldn’t comprehend nor did it want to. This land of imagination protected me from the harsh words of a parent or teacher. It held me safe from the rejection of friends or loved ones. As I reflect back now I see that living this way didn’t safe guard me from life, it actually kept me from living it fully. I missed the present moment, the moment where the lessons are learned, where the pain is felt and where the beautiful process of healing takes place. Each time life presented a challenge whether it was positive or negative I retreated. My mind took over, my spirit left. I abandoned myself when I needed myself the most. When you spend most of your life not living in the present moment it becomes one the scariest places to live. You feel vulnerable in this quiet place, exposed, unprotected. As you spend more and more time living in this place of presence you begin to understand that quite the opposite happens. In this quiet place of presence you realize you are more protected than you ever thought, you mind slow downs, your spirit begins to rise. Your vulnerability becomes a place of strength because it opens you up to new relationships with others and yourself. You allow life to live through you instead of running from it and see that the place in your mind that you once lived, that land of make believe where all your dreams were stored can actually come to fruition in real time. As for those dark places in your mind, the places that scare us the most those are brought to the light of the present moment and no longer hold power over you. Spend time in the present moment, sit quietly and and stay with yourself. If you become agitated or frightened stay a bit longer you will relax. It is with patience and practice and we are able to find peace within ourselves and peace in this world simply by staying present in the only moment we have, this one.
Letting go of the old you. This can be one of the scariest moments in your life. This is moment you realize you lived your life creating and building up who you thought you once were and awaken to the fact that you can be so much more. That person you thought you were was just a facade that you let your parents, friends, and society dictate. This awakening of the true self is both beautiful and terrifying at the same time. It’s beautiful because we begin to understand that there is so much more than we imagined. It’s terrifying because we are not sure how to navigate this new world. We feel alone
We are all here to learn and to grow, to create and recreate. On this journey we can become so lost trying to find that Letting go of the old you. This can be one of the scariest moments in your life. This is moment you realize you lived your life creating and building up who you thought you once were and awaken to the fact that you can be so much more. That person you thought you were was just a facade that you let your parents, friends, and society dictate. This awakening of the true self is both beautiful and terrifying at the same time. It’s beautiful because we begin to understand that there is so much more than we imagined. It’s terrifying because we are not sure how to navigate this new world. We feel alone and uncertain. We are truly born again and that means we have to relearn everything. What I have come to understand is that when we awaken, each and every relationship we have goes through a metamorphosis. We learn to love ourselves, to be open to ourselves and let life in. As we do this we see relationships outside ourselves grow. We see life grow and that can be scary. When we live a life constricted by fear it is difficult to let love in a not feel like we are suffocating. Many have struggled with this for years, the letting go and pulling back and when we finally make the decision to let go, our lives instantly change. It’s all in the decision. The decision to make the change opens the doors for the people, mentors, or programs to come into place to help us.
We are all here to learn and to grow, to create and recreate. On this journey we can become so lost trying to find that missing peace within. We know it’s there in our hearts and souls but to feel it everyday, to live it every moment, is something we can struggled with. We can learn self -love, become healers ourselves yet at times cannot heal that within ourselves that needs the most healing. Letting go allows space for healing.
As we let go of our old-selves our heart races, our mind screams “don’t let me go, what will you become?” If you quiet yourself enough you will hear the gentle whisper of the soul saying, “just let it be. I’ll catch you. Open yourself to your true self and all will be well.” Why do we hold onto our old selves? Is it because we are afraid of what we will become. Do we fear losing both the positive and negative aspects of ourselves? Our old self could have been funny, adventurous, and silly. But that part of you could also have been extremely selfish, a follower, lost, or a liar, focusing only on that which gave pleasure. The hard part about letting go of the old you is that there are some parts we want to hold onto. Those parts of you that you love, they are still there, of course they are because they were created of love and love is that part of the true you. The part who loved to travel, who loved adventure, holding hands, dancing in the rain, and kissing, that part gets to be reinvented, recreated, renewed. The part of you that was selfish, lied and was lost, that part gets to be forgiven and be let go of in order to make room for the new. Letting go of the old you is not so much about moving forward in life but moving into life. Sometimes to let go you have let that part of you die, you do this so you can be resurrected in the present moment, in love, and with a new perspective on who you want to be and where you want to go. May you let go, and may you find peace within. Namaste.